And there is also the fear of measuring up, of keeping up, which for you might be heightened by the heavy weight of all those Harvard expectations.
English phrasal verb
keep up
To continue at the same speed or level.
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And she's just being nourished and inspired at school in ways I clearly can't keep up with.
I was, by trying to keep up, I was not finding my own passion.
When the bad times come, if you are willing to cope with them and keep up with it, I think eventually things start to get better.
They inspire me to increase my VO2 max and my strength and conditioning just to wrangle them and keep up with them.
They'll be able to keep up with the pace of change and have a good life.
And the main thing is to find the ways, time after time to stimulate myself in my own world or in my own funny ways, to dedicate a lot of my time and a lot of my thinking, and keep up with the commitment that, is quite high to continue to be successful.
Because of the massive amounts of energy they use, power and water utility companies must build multi-billion dollar infrastructure to keep up with the demand, and these companies are not paying for their own energy infrastructure.