Never Google Yourself
I was watching beautiful stories about people struggling in everyday life in a world that they don't think they belong in. I was watching old friends create characters and blow my mind and leave me absolutely speechless.
And I was also watching heartbreaking stories about our past in this country that made me so proud to be in this business, because they will one day help me show my son how far we have come, and how people have suffered so that there can be a better life for everyone. Award for Actress, to my friend Sandra Bullock, for her continuing outstanding work. Thank you so much.
Wow. I was just watching everyone else's speech. No one looked down, everyone looked up, didn't look at a teleprompter. I'm following Bono. It's not a good night for me.
Jenna, we're just, we're just not gonna have a good night. When you are told that, you are to receive a, an honor like this from the Palm Springs International Film Festival, you spend the next couple of weeks crapping yourself over what you're gonna say. And those who know me know I don't take compliments well, and I don't feel very comfortable in these situations.
Low self-esteem maybe. Maybe. Maybe time to go back into therapy maybe. So I thought maybe it would be a nice, fun approach, to this evening to maybe, do something different.
So I Googled myself and I read the comments section, thinking I would get some tidbits of what people really think of me, and you know, share them with you for, you know, humorous purposes. Side note, no human being should ever read the comments section or Google oneself at any time. But I did learn a lot about myself.
I did. Some things I already was very well aware of. But let's see. Some. Oh, "Sandra Bullock is over 40" came up a lot.
I know, I know that. "Sandra Bullock is way past 40." Yeah, I'm, I know that, too.
Oh, and apparently, Julia, I don't know where you are. Julia, you and I are in a, in a dispute over George Clooney. We talked about this, right?
It's just, it's shared custody, and we're both fine with it. I don't know why people keep drumming it up. Lots and lots of comment about who I've dated.
I. Some are true, some I'll never admit to. And there was a run of comments on, people who didn't understand why I was in this business. You know, funny things like, you know, I quote Anonymous, "I mean, there's absolutely nothing special about her acting.
She's not particularly attractive. I can't stand her. She's mediocre. She's over 40."
Yeah. And normally this would take me down for about 30 minutes, but at the same time I was on the, on, in the blogosphere, I was also watching movies, lots and lots of movies. I was watching fabulous women, who may also or may not be over 40, giving groundbreaking performances and breaking my heart.
And I was also watching heartbreaking stories about our past in this country that made me so proud to be in this business, because they will one day help me show my son how far we have come, and how people have suffered so that there can be a better life for everyone. And they reminded me of why I was in this business, so I got off that other blog that wasn't very funny.
And I started looking for others, and I saw some nice things, good memories, such as my first job as a producer allowed me to witness one of the most magical and beautiful women I'd ever watched and met in my entire life. Her stillness, her strength, her beauty, her talent, her power. I learned from her, and that's this gorgeous woman to my right, Mrs. Rowlands.
It's you. It's you. I got to do things like play Chopsticks on a floor piano with Tom Hanks. Some commenters thought I had good hair and good teeth.
I was reminded that I made out with Meryl Streep, offscreen, not necessarily her choice. I kinda took her by surprise. And I made some young girls and some over 40 girls laugh with some chick flicks.
I sparred with Betty White, and I've flown into space. I've had a pretty good life and a pretty good career. So before getting off the information superhighway, I was still looking to find something that helped me, explain how I feel about this year that I have, and I came across a quote by Bob Hope.
And I thought, "Who better exemplifies this wonderful town than Bob Hope?" And the golf, it's the quote about golf. And he said, "Golf is a hard game to figure.
One day you'll go out, slice it and shank it, hit it into all the traps, miss every green. The next day you go out, and for no reason at all, you really stink." And I had to read it, over a couple of times, 'cause for some reason I thought shanking meant something sexual, but not in this case, I guess.
But it's true. I've had a very fortunate year, because Alfonso Cuarón gave me the opportunity of a lifetime. Warner Brothers keeps hiring me, but next year could be a real stinker. So from this not particularly talented or attractive, mediocre, over 40 woman, I am so grateful, I am so thankful, and I so appreciate this time you give me tonight.
Thank you so much.
